The epihanomenality of onthevergeofdatingwhitegirls.com

So far the compiled doctrine of my DPizM on "On the Verge of Dating White Girls (dot com)" has been an unexpected and interesting journey. Carthartically I've peeled, removed and excavated layers of frustration, anger, questions and pain that have accumulated through out my experience as an African-American male.  The end result looks to be an epiphenomenonal accomplishment of manifestation. Through the persona of "dpm" I've tapped into an essence of my being that I'm finding harder and harder to suppress.  At the same time of this realization, I now understand that "The Verge" is a place. A room. An address that will always exist. As freeing, as fun, and as liberating as it feels at times, sometimes it feels like a prison...

I also realize that I can no longer talk to anyone about "The Verge" unless they are familiar with it (at least as in this site). There have been too many times that I've found myself in the middle of a heated discussion about "The Verge" and White women & Black men(?).  More often people DO get it. And most folks understand that there are deeper issues needed to be addressed in order to bridge men and women in order to experience the concept of Love, Racial Harmony, and the exclusive sensation of "Black Love."...

However--unfortunately--a lot of folks DON'T get it. I'm lead to believe that these same people are intellectually unable to delve into or accept the reality that we all are in and around.  To be specific, this is the same reality that force feeds us images of; Arnold and Willis Jackson with Mr Drummond, "Webster," Angela Jolie and Brad Pitt with thier little Black baby, Halle Berry "Monster Balling" her way to the top of Hollywood's finest, and etc.... Interestingly enough, I believe the very ones who detest "The Verge" are the very ones that can recieve or add the most.  Oh well...

I now know that "The Verge" requires an admirable courage to stand on or even read this site.  I like to believe that the rewards of which are immeasurable--this I know.  I can only hope that you as witnesses to my journey have been able to find peace with the unsettled sides and thoughts of yourself and "The Verge" around you.

Nonetheless, I firmly stand on "The Verge of Dating White Girls" with every intention of triumph.  I need my readers to know this because... I'm dying.  There's no way of gracefully stating it. It just is.  I only ask that you do not mourn.  Rejoice! My life has been full and I humbly bet that it has been more blessed than the ordinary.

Although I'm fading, I'm still alive and able to continue my journey on "The Verge." In sum, I have no regrets for my mistakes and shortcomings. I cherish them all like I do life itself. In faith I have a feeling that my next level of existence will be completely sour cream free and all that the Blackest Black Man Ever could ask for.

In the meantime, I offer my experience on "The Verge" as a reference, and I offer my life as "dpm" as a sacrifice to those who find themselves here or near "On the Verge of Dating White Girls (.com)"

Until I die.  May "The Verge" be with you.

--deepium

Comments

[The Phoenix]

Umm...that was mildly depressing...

[Miss Atl]

WOW!!!

This is my second time reading your blog, and I am a bit confused as to what you are saying? I don’t know you personally, but reading yesterday I thought that the whole concept of being on "the verge of dating white girls" was somewhat of a metaphor/a figure of speech, not literally. Am I wrong?

Also, what has went on in the last 24 hours to swing mood into a complete 180? Because if I am not mistaken yesterday you seemed cheerful, relaxed and today it seems as of you are frustrated/annoyed.

But then maybe I have read too much into this????

[Mdean]

What the hell...I HOPE your talking about the site and not U and a person. Holla at me fam!

[AWSF.ALC.BBE.SFAF]

Consider this:
Women account for 60% of all NEW HIV/AIDS infections in the US, and that it has been medically proven that MEN are most likely to be spreading the disease (there NO recorded cases of women to women transmission) -
AND, the African-American (gotta be PC-yuck) community is one of the hardest hit by HIV/AIDS next to the Latino/Latina community (a lot of that has to do w/their religious beliefs) -

AND, a lot of black & latino males DO the 'down low' thing (again, proven data) -

Can you seriously blame the sisters for going out w/anyone but black men?

Now, when you can seriously address THAT issue & back it up w/published medical data, then come forth with suggestions that address that issue for the community - you may be taken seriously by the women.

BTW: 250,000 people in the US have HIV/AIDS & DON'T KNOW IT!!!

THERE ARE OVER 5 MILLION PEOPLE LIVING W/HIV OR AIDS IN THE US TODAY (known #'s- think of all the unknowns)

Wrap it up & I'll take it!

[kristen]

the above commenter needs to READ THE ENTIRE WEBSITE before making comments such as this. now before you do so, let me say that 'yes you have a right to express your opinion, blahblahblah' but do not come here with statistics about black men giving black women AIDS/HIV (that's what you were claiming right?) and want us to take you seriously.

i do not personally know dpm, but i assume that his reason for creating this site was to provide a platform for his struggles as a black man, in a world that hates black men, and seeking to love himself and black women along the way. now CORRECT ME IF I AM WRONG, but that's the impression i got. now dpm, let me know how hot or cold i am in this assumption.

so awsf or whatever the hell your name is, let me RESPECTFULLY say that your coment had nothing to do with his post. unfortunately mine doesn't either since i had to respond to the rithickulousness[sp?] of yours. a lot of HIV/AIDS transmissions are due to lack of respect for oneself, knowledge about contraceptives use and just plain stupidity at times, not sex. i think your brand of ignorance is what dpm is against, no?

yes

[Supa]

Ummm....yeah. What Kristen said.

[dpm]

MissAtl:

Yes, you're right. OTV is a figure of speech. Moreover it has come to be a place of transition for myself. Nonetheless, "On the Verge of Dating White Girls" will always exist.

Also, since you're new to the site, please know that "The Verge" is unpredictable much like life. I just tell it like it is.

So yeah, perhaps you read into "too much." Then again, there is no limit to OTV.

MDiesel:

I'm well. I'm just on "The Verge."

AWSF.XYZ.ABC.789...?:

Ah, I very much appreciate your concern and statistical data on AIDS--even though I have no idea where that came from. I'm HIV free. However this is an important conversation and I hope to address the topic soon.

Kristen & Supa:

Thanks for pointing out the rithickulousness of the assumed.

BTW: I don't have AIDS!

[meli]

Damn Sistahs!

Between Kristen and Supa Im in solidarity w. your remarks.

THERE's a saying, "Reading is Fundamental"

DPM's death (lol)is an epiphany of enlightment. That should be commended and acknowledged by both sistahs and brothas. How many brothas do we literally know go forth with their struggles and pour em out for the world to see...ALL FOR THE PURPOSE OF HEALING AND REVEALING THEIR TRUE NATURE, STRENGTH AND SELF RESPECT. YO, I MAY B PREACHIN TO A CHOIR BUT OBVIOUSLY THE DEAF DUMP AND BLIND RESIDE IN THE CONGREGATION.

R.I.P. DPM!

LOVE 2 THE BLACKEST BLACK MAN EVER...LOL & EMBRACE
~M

[dpm]

Meli:

Thanks for wishing me "Peace" in Death, however I ain't dead. I'm alive and kicking on "The Verge."

[emergingphoenix]

@DPM - I am confused. What do you mean by:

"I need my readers to know this because... I'm dying."

Do you mean that you may not post as often anymore, or that your struggles OTV, are becoming overwhelming? I hope neither is the case. Your blog inspired me to blog, and gives me a sense of balance when it comes to the male perspective. In regards to losing the battle OTV, and creeping over to the "other" side, well...I don't know what to say if that is the case. Ultimately, I think you're right, "there are deeper issues needed to be addressed...in order to experience the concept of..."Black Love"". There are VERY BIG ISSUES happening in the world, and unless we are all (black people) fine with being the permanent worldwide underclass, I think we need to act. Because for as much as we all individually accomplish our individual goals, we can always expect that our blackness (ie. position in life), will always become a cause for negative prejudice from someone who doesn't know you or your accomplishments (and sometimes even when they do)...

[dpm]

It means... I'm dying. This I must tell you. The details will come.