Nature's heal-it-all antidote for "The Verge."
My son is half way grown at 9-years-old and if I go in his room right now and peak at him I know 2 things:
- (1) he's asleep
- (2) he's puckering his mouth and going through the motions as if he is still breast feeding like a little baby..
And don't get dude wrong, he was weaned after 2 years with no argument. But he still silently dreams about it. It's evident. And when I think about it, I remember when dude would be nursing with his eyes rolling to the back of head fighting sleep, and the only thing that kept him feeding was the fact that he could see me watching. It was almost as if he was looking at me and indulging in the nipple just to let me know he could--and I couldn't. I was never mad at him, but I saw what was happening...
I'm saying, I'm a grown ass man and there's only a few fantasies that top a chocolate nipple melting in my mouth. I guess considering the episodic relationships that I've experienced "On The Verge" and beyond, I have an indescribable feeling to see that my son has the same inherent weakness that has most men possess: 2 be Mothered. Although I don't dream about breast feeding, I do dream about a woman's touch in my life and her presence to retreat to after a day of walking "The Verge."
For instance:...
When I was sick as a sea gull caked in crude oil, I swear all I wanted was a woman to make some noise in the kitchen and periodically check in on my ass. Yeah, I coulda told my Moms or some other female admirer to check in on my ass. But really, I just wanted a nipple to drool on.
You know, no strings attached. A prescription. A nipple pill. A spoonful. Something. I just got this feeling that the nurture of a nipple could solve the worlds problems, the rising price if gasoline, or at least my meager stresses ranging from minor illness to "Damn, I gotta wash these damn dishes again."
I'm saying, If I could end my day/evening with a nipple that lactated all the nutrients I needed to get me peacefully through the night and the next day, I think I'd be ah'ight.
In sum, I think I'm jealous that my son has found a way to savor the magical sensation of the nipple that nurtured him as an infant...
*Additionally note: Dude sleeps with the biggest smile on his face and in all the 9 years of his life, I don't ever-forever-ever know him to wake up in the middle of the night--EVER.
And it's hard to wake him up. I've even witnessed him sleep walk to the
bathroom with his eyes closed and his lips sucking on an invisible
nipple. Must be nice. Nipples are nice Nipples are glittah!




Sometimes, accidentally on purpose when I accidentally on purpose see movies and they are doing extracurricular activities on those bad, bad movies that people watch. . .
Sucking on nipples looks incrediblly erotic.
I must admit that I have often thought about how it feels, considering brothers seems to THOROUGHLY enjoy feasting on them.
Yeah, I know it sounds phreaky, that's just me being me.
I'm going to go ahead and end this conversation, because now I'm on the verge of something else.
Posted by: P | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 02:16 PM
ok P is a phreak...
Posted by: ThatGirlTam | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 02:29 PM
@ Tam.
Whaddeva. I'm just sayin.
:P
(Perhaps the sticking tongue out icon at this point is not appropriate, but again, that's just me being me)
Posted by: P | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 02:48 PM
It's okay ladies. "Phreakyness" is encouraged on "The Verge."
Posted by: dpm | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 03:21 PM
When I was sick as sea gull caked in crude oil....
I love to be 'the nipple' sometimes :-)
Posted by: Paula D. | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 03:45 PM
PREACH!
Posted by: Mdean | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 05:14 PM
ok...all of yall are phreaks! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...and P stop sending me instant messages talkin bout I'm the biggest phreak of them all - NO.I.AIN'T
Posted by: That Girl Tam | Wednesday, April 19, 2006 at 08:15 PM
DPM
Nipples are erotic. And did you know that when women breastfeed...they orgasm? Yes!
Freaked me out when I breastfed my first baby, I was so shocked confused and embarrassed no one told me this. I think my daughter thought I didn't want to feed her, I jerk the nipple out of her mouth. Also why, some women LOVE it.
Posted by: satisfiedsistah | Thursday, April 20, 2006 at 08:29 AM
LMAO @ satisfied sister! I have never birthed or breast fed and had no friggin' idea!
DP - You're a trip:)
Posted by: Cocoa Girl | Thursday, April 20, 2006 at 09:24 AM
LMAO! I breastfed my youngest son...and I never orgasmed...does that mean he wasn't doing it right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I didn't care for breastfeeding actually...that shit hurt!
Yeah...I still think yall are a bunch of phreaks!!
Posted by: ThatGirlTam | Thursday, April 20, 2006 at 10:29 AM
CDFU!!!! lol @ the orgasmic expeience during Breast feeding.. lol Im over here dyin
Posted by: eb0nie | Thursday, April 20, 2006 at 12:31 PM
SS:
I'm not surprised. My son's mother breast fed him for 2 years. And based on the way he puckers his lips and smiles in his sleep, I'm sure it was just as good for him.
Tam:
I agree...
Posted by: dpm | Thursday, April 20, 2006 at 12:35 PM